That's what happens when the fictions we invent become so rigid that we end up serving them instead of them serving us.

Of course we don't live in 632 AD. The world has changed a lot since then and religions are just obsolete. You can't understand the world of the 21st century by searching ancient scripts written by uncultivated fallible human beings.

It's great you realized that, and you are so brave! Congratulations!